I used to believe that good things would just happen randomly. While that is kinda true, it doesn't get you anywhere.
You see I'm a gamer, a BIG gamer so most of the time I would be sitting on my arse doing nothing all day. However recently going out and doing stuff feels so much more rewarding.
You see when I was just gaming I felt empty and lonely. I literally had no personality and I still think that is true till this day. But since that I'm going out more I feel so.... alive.
For the last few years I have been bored out of my damn mind. There were times I would just lose it and just lose the will to live. But for the past few months I have witnessed something beautiful.
When I go out meeting new people I generally feel excited and yet afraid but in my eyes that feels good. I had been alone for so long that I forgot how it feels to be noticed and it feels magical.
Sure every time I do go out I might lose a brain cell or two due to the heavy amount of drinking but I feel happy doing so and if I'm happy and everyone else is happy, then I can't ask for more. That is the true reward. Happiness.
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