Hi guys. How are you? I'm great. Thanks for asking XD.
So I'm just going to get to the point but recently I have stopped shaving out of pure laziness because I am a lazy person with nothing to do.
Anyway on Thursday and Friday I went out to my favourite bar with my favourite people. The usual scenario would be that I would be drinking so I can get a little confidence boost. talk to my friends and dance my funky little ass off in an effort to make people laugh and make new friends.
So I did that but for some unknown reason some fairly attractive women kept hitting on me. So naturally I just went "well this is new" in my head and whilst they would be talking to me they all mentioned my beard. In all honesty I thought my beard was underdeveloped but comparing to everyone elses beard that are the same age as me I was the clear winner since that I can actually grow a proper beard. yep no bum fluff from this feller.
Anyway I know now that the beard is the way to go. no more baby face from this guy. I'll make sure that the beard is fairly trimmed cause right now it is a bit curly. But if I happen to accidentally shave all of my beard all I have to do is wait 4-6 days for it to grow back so that is not too bad.
I shall make my leave now cause I have work in the morning so stay beautiful and merry Christmas and a happy new year.
Sunday, 21 December 2014
Tuesday, 16 December 2014
Long time, No post
Sorry that title is just terrible but HEY YOU GUUUYYYS!!! How are you lovely bunch people today! I hope you guys are ready for the bestest, most awesomest Christmas and new years ever! I certainly am. Wooooooo Christmas! A time where everyone gives you presents and you don't have to pay a damn thing.
Naaaaaa I'm just joking. Christmas is really about getting together and thanking every last one of your friends and Family for being a part of your life. awwwww kinda sweet when you think about it haha!
I hope you guys didn't miss me too much because I did. I love writing and letting strangers read about my personal life. READ ALL ABOUT IT, SOME TWAT IS POSTING STUFF ABOUT HIS PERSONAL LIFE!!!
No really I did miss writing. Writers block is so annoying don't you think. I used to be a reviewer and I loved every single moment of it. Just writing whatever comes to mind and being able to have your say feels pleasant.
Honestly I could not be any happier right now. I have awesome friends that I care with all my heart and my favourite time of the year is finally here. I can actually feel like I can leave my depression, anxiety and lack of confidence behind for once and just start having a good time. In fact I'm thinking of going to some random bar and start singing some dean martin or frank Sinatra jr for karaoke night.
I chose those artists because I love swing. ring-a-ding-ding baby. But yea swing is my passion. I always wanted to be on stage wearing a nice tuxedo, sitting on a high top chair with a glass of spiced rum in my hand (Spiced rum and redbull is gorgeous by the way). unfortunately I know I'm not the best of singers but with my range of voice impersonations I'm sure I can come up with a decent tone of voice for "ain't that a kick in the head" by Dean Martin. Literally my favourite song in the whole wide world.
Honestly I feel so damn happy right now. Apart from a few minor set backs such as my job not liking me very much and the fact I'm still single (Single and ready to mingle XD) I feel relaxed.
I am looking forward to the future and shall not dwell in the past. Hopefully 2015 will be awesome and I hope it will be awesome for you guys too. Still haven't thought of a new years resolution yet but I'll think of something so that I seem normal XD.
But yea recently I have been good my friends and please tell me how you feel about what the new year may bring and share your plans for the holidays. Oh how rude I haven't told you what I'm doing for the holidays. Well I shall spend Christmas and Boxing day with my loving family and then go down to Devon for a few days to see the rest of my family. The thing is my Granddad owns a hotel down in Devon and the plan is, is to have every family member stay there and have the biggest family Christmas party we ever had. Sounds so awesome and can't wait to meet everyone. For new years eve I plan on spending it with my friends for the first time ever. Probably go to my favourite bar and maybe dance until my legs can't take it anymore and sing until I'm breathless.
Honestly I am so looking forward to the holidays and I'd love to hear what you guys are doing. Just post a comment and lets get chatting shall we but for now...
Naaaaaa I'm just joking. Christmas is really about getting together and thanking every last one of your friends and Family for being a part of your life. awwwww kinda sweet when you think about it haha!
I hope you guys didn't miss me too much because I did. I love writing and letting strangers read about my personal life. READ ALL ABOUT IT, SOME TWAT IS POSTING STUFF ABOUT HIS PERSONAL LIFE!!!
No really I did miss writing. Writers block is so annoying don't you think. I used to be a reviewer and I loved every single moment of it. Just writing whatever comes to mind and being able to have your say feels pleasant.
Honestly I could not be any happier right now. I have awesome friends that I care with all my heart and my favourite time of the year is finally here. I can actually feel like I can leave my depression, anxiety and lack of confidence behind for once and just start having a good time. In fact I'm thinking of going to some random bar and start singing some dean martin or frank Sinatra jr for karaoke night.
I chose those artists because I love swing. ring-a-ding-ding baby. But yea swing is my passion. I always wanted to be on stage wearing a nice tuxedo, sitting on a high top chair with a glass of spiced rum in my hand (Spiced rum and redbull is gorgeous by the way). unfortunately I know I'm not the best of singers but with my range of voice impersonations I'm sure I can come up with a decent tone of voice for "ain't that a kick in the head" by Dean Martin. Literally my favourite song in the whole wide world.
Honestly I feel so damn happy right now. Apart from a few minor set backs such as my job not liking me very much and the fact I'm still single (Single and ready to mingle XD) I feel relaxed.
I am looking forward to the future and shall not dwell in the past. Hopefully 2015 will be awesome and I hope it will be awesome for you guys too. Still haven't thought of a new years resolution yet but I'll think of something so that I seem normal XD.
But yea recently I have been good my friends and please tell me how you feel about what the new year may bring and share your plans for the holidays. Oh how rude I haven't told you what I'm doing for the holidays. Well I shall spend Christmas and Boxing day with my loving family and then go down to Devon for a few days to see the rest of my family. The thing is my Granddad owns a hotel down in Devon and the plan is, is to have every family member stay there and have the biggest family Christmas party we ever had. Sounds so awesome and can't wait to meet everyone. For new years eve I plan on spending it with my friends for the first time ever. Probably go to my favourite bar and maybe dance until my legs can't take it anymore and sing until I'm breathless.
Honestly I am so looking forward to the holidays and I'd love to hear what you guys are doing. Just post a comment and lets get chatting shall we but for now...
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAVE A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Sunday, 5 October 2014
How anyone can succeed in life
Hi all! During these recent years I have come to realise that I have had a fairly successful life despite the fact that I didn't do well in school. So I'm going to tell you how I got to where I am by being the person I am by telling you more about my life story.
I have mentioned this before but at a very young age I was diagnosed with a disability called dyspraxia. It's a little bit like dyslexia but it effects your motor skills as well. So in school I was clumsy and really bad at sports. However the other thing I did not mention is that I am technically retarded and this is no joke. The doctors pretty much said that I will struggle at everything I do especially in school and performing individual tasks. Obviously I found this out when I was 12 years old and it has been a burden but I have come to terms with that. In fact ever since I've known I have tried so much harder to complete my tasks.
So I finished school with really bad grades. While I felt disappointed and depressed I didn't let it get to me. So instead of mourning that the fact that I would never be good at anything I moved on and went into college. While the chances were slim I still managed to go to college and study ICT.
The reason why I chose ICT is because I played loads of games and because I felt like I was an outcast to society I stayed indoors pretty much all my entire life sitting in front of a computer. During college I changed. I was a very shy kid before I went to college but for some reason that all changed. While I was still pretty shy I did some how gain a confidence boost and made many friends because of it and I was very happy. I was also doing very well in my course. In fact at the end of my first year I was awarded the student of the year award.
This was when I found out that anyone can do anything if they put their mind to it. Just because a bunch of clever doctors said that I'm not all that smart, it doesn't mean that I'll never be happy or make a name for myself.
While I was in college I became a gaming journalist for an American gaming website called VGMMDI. While I didn't get paid or anything I enjoyed writing articles and I loved the fact that I can connect to people around the world and listen to their comments. It wasn't a well known website (in fact we would be lucky to get 10 viewers) but with my articles they were the most popular out of the bunch. With my articles I would of gotten 10,000 viewers where is everyone else would of gotten 60 viewers. I don't know why but people seemed to like what I did and it felt rewarding.
Then I had to quit to get a paid job at a petrol station. The pay wasn't half bad but working there was stressful though since that it was so disorganised. In fact there were times where I didn't get paid so I had to yell at my boss quite a lot even though I would usually avoid confrontation. However ever since I left that job I have become so much stronger. I feel like I can take on my own battles now and I'm much happier for it.
And now I got this new job where I am a web designer. When I got this job I was surprised that I made it this far in so little time. I'm 19 years old and I already have a steady career and this is in England which means it's even more impressive that I have a job at my age.
So now I feel like I have a purpose in life and I am so much more happier. While I still have trouble performing simple tasks and meeting new people I feel like that I have so much potential and this is simply the beginning of a new and happier life.
Just because someone tells you that you're ugly or stupid, it doesn't necessarily mean that your not going to have a good life because if you actually try hard and put more positivity in your life then nothing but good things could come out of it.
I have mentioned this before but at a very young age I was diagnosed with a disability called dyspraxia. It's a little bit like dyslexia but it effects your motor skills as well. So in school I was clumsy and really bad at sports. However the other thing I did not mention is that I am technically retarded and this is no joke. The doctors pretty much said that I will struggle at everything I do especially in school and performing individual tasks. Obviously I found this out when I was 12 years old and it has been a burden but I have come to terms with that. In fact ever since I've known I have tried so much harder to complete my tasks.
So I finished school with really bad grades. While I felt disappointed and depressed I didn't let it get to me. So instead of mourning that the fact that I would never be good at anything I moved on and went into college. While the chances were slim I still managed to go to college and study ICT.
The reason why I chose ICT is because I played loads of games and because I felt like I was an outcast to society I stayed indoors pretty much all my entire life sitting in front of a computer. During college I changed. I was a very shy kid before I went to college but for some reason that all changed. While I was still pretty shy I did some how gain a confidence boost and made many friends because of it and I was very happy. I was also doing very well in my course. In fact at the end of my first year I was awarded the student of the year award.
This was when I found out that anyone can do anything if they put their mind to it. Just because a bunch of clever doctors said that I'm not all that smart, it doesn't mean that I'll never be happy or make a name for myself.
While I was in college I became a gaming journalist for an American gaming website called VGMMDI. While I didn't get paid or anything I enjoyed writing articles and I loved the fact that I can connect to people around the world and listen to their comments. It wasn't a well known website (in fact we would be lucky to get 10 viewers) but with my articles they were the most popular out of the bunch. With my articles I would of gotten 10,000 viewers where is everyone else would of gotten 60 viewers. I don't know why but people seemed to like what I did and it felt rewarding.
Then I had to quit to get a paid job at a petrol station. The pay wasn't half bad but working there was stressful though since that it was so disorganised. In fact there were times where I didn't get paid so I had to yell at my boss quite a lot even though I would usually avoid confrontation. However ever since I left that job I have become so much stronger. I feel like I can take on my own battles now and I'm much happier for it.
And now I got this new job where I am a web designer. When I got this job I was surprised that I made it this far in so little time. I'm 19 years old and I already have a steady career and this is in England which means it's even more impressive that I have a job at my age.
So now I feel like I have a purpose in life and I am so much more happier. While I still have trouble performing simple tasks and meeting new people I feel like that I have so much potential and this is simply the beginning of a new and happier life.
Just because someone tells you that you're ugly or stupid, it doesn't necessarily mean that your not going to have a good life because if you actually try hard and put more positivity in your life then nothing but good things could come out of it.
Thursday, 2 October 2014
L death note
Hello all. At the 25th of October I will be going to Comic Con and I will be cosplaying the one... the only... L. Yes L from Death Note
While I still need to put make up and whiten my body because I'm too naturally tanned (Yep no fake tango on me) I think I'm pretty much there. What do you guys think. Also if you see me at comic feel free to say hi. I have also been studying his personality carefully so on the day I will be an arrogant genius. All though that is pretty much normal me anyway so... yea
Wednesday, 1 October 2014
How weird is normal
Hello again! All my life I have been perceived as a weirdo. While I felt neglected it felt right to feel weird. I used to act like I was normal but that was boring. What's so fun about normal.
Then I went out. It was late. Had a beer in one hand and a woman in another lol. While I was just hanging around talking to people I noticed that everyone in the bar was weird. And seeing that was fun. Then it hit me. No one is normal. Everyone has their own definition of what is weird and what is normal.
So technically everyone is weird but that is OK. It just shows that you have personality. If everyone was normal then the world would be dull and predictable and what's the fun in that.
So I ask you, embrace your weirdness. Don't let someone push you around and tell you to act normal. Because the chances are they're not quite normal themselves.
Then I went out. It was late. Had a beer in one hand and a woman in another lol. While I was just hanging around talking to people I noticed that everyone in the bar was weird. And seeing that was fun. Then it hit me. No one is normal. Everyone has their own definition of what is weird and what is normal.
So technically everyone is weird but that is OK. It just shows that you have personality. If everyone was normal then the world would be dull and predictable and what's the fun in that.
So I ask you, embrace your weirdness. Don't let someone push you around and tell you to act normal. Because the chances are they're not quite normal themselves.
Tuesday, 30 September 2014
How sitting on your arse gets you no where
I used to believe that good things would just happen randomly. While that is kinda true, it doesn't get you anywhere.
You see I'm a gamer, a BIG gamer so most of the time I would be sitting on my arse doing nothing all day. However recently going out and doing stuff feels so much more rewarding.
You see when I was just gaming I felt empty and lonely. I literally had no personality and I still think that is true till this day. But since that I'm going out more I feel so.... alive.
For the last few years I have been bored out of my damn mind. There were times I would just lose it and just lose the will to live. But for the past few months I have witnessed something beautiful.
When I go out meeting new people I generally feel excited and yet afraid but in my eyes that feels good. I had been alone for so long that I forgot how it feels to be noticed and it feels magical.
Sure every time I do go out I might lose a brain cell or two due to the heavy amount of drinking but I feel happy doing so and if I'm happy and everyone else is happy, then I can't ask for more. That is the true reward. Happiness.
You see I'm a gamer, a BIG gamer so most of the time I would be sitting on my arse doing nothing all day. However recently going out and doing stuff feels so much more rewarding.
You see when I was just gaming I felt empty and lonely. I literally had no personality and I still think that is true till this day. But since that I'm going out more I feel so.... alive.
For the last few years I have been bored out of my damn mind. There were times I would just lose it and just lose the will to live. But for the past few months I have witnessed something beautiful.
When I go out meeting new people I generally feel excited and yet afraid but in my eyes that feels good. I had been alone for so long that I forgot how it feels to be noticed and it feels magical.
Sure every time I do go out I might lose a brain cell or two due to the heavy amount of drinking but I feel happy doing so and if I'm happy and everyone else is happy, then I can't ask for more. That is the true reward. Happiness.
Why people can't tell you what to do
Hello friendly bloggers. Just wanted to talk about a new subject and share it amongst all you fine people.
Recently people have been telling me that what I'm doing is stupid, pointless and stuff like that and even though I want to slap those people around the face I just simply ignore them.
The thing is we have our own lives. We make our own decisions. If people start ordering you around and you end up following those orders then you are nothing more than a slave.
If you want to do something then do it. No one can actually stop you. Sure they may say that you're a fool but it is just words at the end of the day.
If you want to party, then party. If you want to smoke, then smoke. I don't really do any of these except the odd party every so often but I choose not to do them.
I want to do what I want to do and that's to follow my dreams. I want to have a joyful life, have fun with my friends and then eventually find a girlfriend.
While I'm having trouble finding a girlfriend because I'm socially awkward and very ugly, I have met most of my goals already and I'm happy for that.
When I was a kid I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia (Not to be confused with Dyslexia) and while it has effected my life in many ways, I'm still happy. I'm always smiling. In fact because I'm always happy people think that I'm smoking dope but I'm not. I have never smoked. I'm just happy.
My point is, is that if you think your life is depressing then you're partly to blame because you're the one that's letting the depression get to you. Have fun. Live it up a little dude.
Recently people have been telling me that what I'm doing is stupid, pointless and stuff like that and even though I want to slap those people around the face I just simply ignore them.
The thing is we have our own lives. We make our own decisions. If people start ordering you around and you end up following those orders then you are nothing more than a slave.
If you want to do something then do it. No one can actually stop you. Sure they may say that you're a fool but it is just words at the end of the day.
If you want to party, then party. If you want to smoke, then smoke. I don't really do any of these except the odd party every so often but I choose not to do them.
I want to do what I want to do and that's to follow my dreams. I want to have a joyful life, have fun with my friends and then eventually find a girlfriend.
While I'm having trouble finding a girlfriend because I'm socially awkward and very ugly, I have met most of my goals already and I'm happy for that.
When I was a kid I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia (Not to be confused with Dyslexia) and while it has effected my life in many ways, I'm still happy. I'm always smiling. In fact because I'm always happy people think that I'm smoking dope but I'm not. I have never smoked. I'm just happy.
My point is, is that if you think your life is depressing then you're partly to blame because you're the one that's letting the depression get to you. Have fun. Live it up a little dude.
Sunday, 28 September 2014
about me
Salutations fellow bloggers (said in a lispy nerdy voice lol ) My name is Ryan and I am a first time blogger that wants to be part of the blogging world simply because I want to.
I'm a man that desires nothing more than the truth and respect. When these desires are not met then I feel depressed and lonely. But since that never happens I'm pretty much the happiest man on earth.
I have recently got a new job. I have had three jobs in total. My first job was a game journalist. I didn't get paid or anything but I enjoyed it and had many supporters even if my parents didn't exactly approve but I went for it anyway because I am my own person. If someone says to me that what I'm doing is pointless I would just tell them that if it makes me happy then it is not pointless at all.
My second job was working for a petrol station. Whilst I hated every moment of working there, it did improve my social skills despite the fact I struggle with socialising. In fact ever since I left that job a few weeks ago I have been out and about with my friends now and I no longer feel like I'm an outcast of sorts. For the first time in my life I actually feel confident and happier.
Now with this new job I am a web designer for a small company and I feel right at home. even though I am one of the two IT supporters I can finally get a chance to geek out about everything techy.
In my spare time I like to do 3D design as in CGI. While I'm new to this hobby of mine I do seem to have a lot of passion towards it and the fact that I managed to build a 3D room in less than 5 hours it shows that its my new talent
I also made a bender robot from futurama which was a lot of fun
I am also a hardcore gamer and trust me I am literally addicted to it. it's like my own drug. that's how bad my gaming addiction is. I need to get a life don't I lol.
Actually speaking of getting a life I am actually starting to cut down on my problem in favour of going out more and I am a lot happier and I don't feel bored anymore. When I am out I am always drinking and making new friends at my favourite bars.
My other hobby is voice acting. While I rarely do recordings I do like to impersonate a celebrity or character. I like to test my vocal range and I also do it because I really don't like my normal voice. I sound dull and emotionless even when I'm trying to express myself.
Speaking of which that is exactly why I'm cosplaying as L from death note at comic con. I love the character because I can relate. I am a genius with poor social skills and I talk with no expression at all.
That's about it for my life story. If I told you anymore I might bore you to death so I'll stop there. I'll probably be sending photos of my outfit on another day so stick around and see ya guys later.
I'm a man that desires nothing more than the truth and respect. When these desires are not met then I feel depressed and lonely. But since that never happens I'm pretty much the happiest man on earth.
I have recently got a new job. I have had three jobs in total. My first job was a game journalist. I didn't get paid or anything but I enjoyed it and had many supporters even if my parents didn't exactly approve but I went for it anyway because I am my own person. If someone says to me that what I'm doing is pointless I would just tell them that if it makes me happy then it is not pointless at all.
My second job was working for a petrol station. Whilst I hated every moment of working there, it did improve my social skills despite the fact I struggle with socialising. In fact ever since I left that job a few weeks ago I have been out and about with my friends now and I no longer feel like I'm an outcast of sorts. For the first time in my life I actually feel confident and happier.
Now with this new job I am a web designer for a small company and I feel right at home. even though I am one of the two IT supporters I can finally get a chance to geek out about everything techy.
In my spare time I like to do 3D design as in CGI. While I'm new to this hobby of mine I do seem to have a lot of passion towards it and the fact that I managed to build a 3D room in less than 5 hours it shows that its my new talent
Actually speaking of getting a life I am actually starting to cut down on my problem in favour of going out more and I am a lot happier and I don't feel bored anymore. When I am out I am always drinking and making new friends at my favourite bars.
My other hobby is voice acting. While I rarely do recordings I do like to impersonate a celebrity or character. I like to test my vocal range and I also do it because I really don't like my normal voice. I sound dull and emotionless even when I'm trying to express myself.
Speaking of which that is exactly why I'm cosplaying as L from death note at comic con. I love the character because I can relate. I am a genius with poor social skills and I talk with no expression at all.
That's about it for my life story. If I told you anymore I might bore you to death so I'll stop there. I'll probably be sending photos of my outfit on another day so stick around and see ya guys later.
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